Not all Roses

Not all Roses
Originally uploaded by lacychenault

Ok, I'll admit it - Anson isn't always cooing and smiling - sometimes he just has a bad day. Today was one of those days. He wanted to be held all day long.....if I put him down he was not happy - if I stopped moving - he was not happy. My left arm is now much stronger. I am hoping tomorrow is better. He's not sick, just well, moody I guess. Today he just wanted to be cuddled - a lot.

And tonight - is his first night in the crib. He's always been in the bassinet right next to own bed at night. Even though he is right accross the hall it feels like miles. So now I am preparing to lay down for bedtime, and just lay there for an hour worrying that he is not breathing - that I don't hear his breathing on the monitor - then checking in on him - waking him and starting all over again....yay!

Good news - He rolled over today :-)

On being the crazy parents

365 - Day 2 - On being the crazy parents
Originally uploaded by lacychenault

I often wonder who Anson will be when he gets older with parents like us. We are soooo extremely goofy all of the time. Hopefully he will understand there is a time for funyuns - and a time for responsibilyuns.

You never know how your children will turn out - but we do know one thing - how your parents are, how they treat you, other people, and what interested them directly impact how you are. Everything they said and did when you were young effected you. Whether you can to admit it or not, you are who you are, because of your parents, good - or bad.

I often hear people say - I won't make the same mistakes my parents did - and I feel the same way. I think the trick is not to go to the other extreme. My mother was beaten, her parents were super strict. So, in turn, with me she was overly permissive. I was spoiled. This exploded in her face when I became a rebellious, angry teenager. So, I in turn do not want to spoil Anson - I can't let him get away with everything. But I don't want to be too strict either.

It's all in finding the balance.

So, I hope we will do good. I hope he turns out to be a responsible, happy, fulfilled adult.